Would be 28 years

Tomorrow would have been John and my 28th anniversary. I confess I am very sad that we were not able to spend many more years together. I still sometimes think John will walk through the door after work, I miss him so much.

On another note, Chris is slowly getting better. He has good days and bad days, but through them all he has a good attitude. We are starting to work on him being able to sit on the side of the bed. He is still so weak, but slowly getting stronger. I just give thanks each day for his life, for the opportunity to be available to help and love him through it all. We have been reading the devotion book "Heaven", and it has so encouraged us both. Especially missing John and knowing that he truly is in heaven and that we will one day join him for eternity. I am especially excited about the new earth, this earth restored to how God originally planned and created it. How wonderful it will be.

Let me touch Your tassels

It is hard to honestly know what to write. My emotions are raw, trying desperately to keep my hope and faith alive. How do you watch your son struggle, both physically and emotionally? I feel his despair as a knife that cuts through my heart.

I am trying to keep a positive attitude, but it is so hard when someone you love so desperately is in constant pain and is totally dependent upon those around him to do the simplest of tasks. Chris always has a good attitude, he tries so hard to give a smile and a thanks to everyone who does anything for him. Chris loves the Lord with all his heart, and is waiting upon Him to bring his healing. The other night he wrote this simple request to the Lord, barely legible on a paper. "Your word talks about touching the tassels on you robe, I have the faith, let me touch Your tassels." It was such a sweet and tender prayer. Please Lord let Chris touch your tassels, so that Your power will go out to bring his healing.

"As Jesus was on his way, the crowds almost crushed him. And a woman was there who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years, but no one could heal her. She came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak, and immediately her bleeding stopped. " Luke 8:42

Chris's request is that you pray for his anxiety, it comes and goes but leaves him very distressed. Thanks, Dawn

No place like home

Today Chris came home, this in itself is a miracle. There was many days when I wondered if he would ever come home again. It was just the reality of the severity of the situation. This morning we met with a team from the hospital and decided with the help of hospice nurses Chris would do better at home. He was very happy about it.

So this evening he came home, with lots of equipment to go along with him. But it is wonderful to have him home, a little nerve wracking as we figure out all the medications and how the various pieces of equipment work, but this is small compared with the joy of just having him home.

And one of the greatest things is we can start feeding him good food, he already had some pizza. As he eats we pray his strength returns. He also has a really cool new bed which we moved into the family room until he gets stronger. It is a tempur pedic with a remote that lifts the head and feet.